My Beautiful Son

Hi sweet son,
I miss you honey. Today is a sleepy day. The kids and I slept most of it away. Zoe stayed the night with us, we love her so much she's a great girl. I know how much you loved her too and how special you are to her, she misses you too like crazy.
I had a hard time geting to sleep last night, in fact I didn't fall asleep until 5am. I slept a lot today. I don't mind it, cause when I sleep I don't have to think about you being gone and missing you. I don't like that I missed time spent with the kids. I miss you so much son, I will never get over missing you, never. I don't know how one heart can take so much pain, stress, saddness and grief and still beat without faltering. I swear the saying of "died of a broken heart" means something different to me. I think I understand it more. They say when someone has been married for many years and one of them dies the other one will go soon, because they die of "A broken heart". I have been with you for 25 years and suddenly you are gone, I know this is what it feels like to think your dieing of a broken heart. I believe it is the deep yearning for your loved one, especially a Moma longing for her child, I don't think there is a greater longing or loss. I miss you with a great saddnedd and deep passion and all I ever want is YOU!!!
I need to get dinner going for us babe. I wish you were coming to dinner, how I miss that and will in the years to come. You are always on my mind, I miss you son, I love you more~Moma~