Well son,
I was right, I didn't fall out til about 5 am...you were my last thought before I fell asleep, and my first thought this morning, followed by Greg and Journey. Please hug me tight today son.
I miss you so.
Hugs kisses and I love you more Moma~
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Monday, April 4, 2011
Hi sweet boy
Nicholas my son I miss you so mch....always and still!!!
I brought you flowers yesterday....sat in the truck for about 15 minutes thinking about everything that has happened in the past 2-1/2 years!!! I got angry with you again for leaving me, I loved you so much and I know you loved me so much too! I just don't understand why there couldn't have been another way to all this, to end your pain, your agony, your suffering!!! Couldn't there be? Couldn't there? Then I got really said because reality is...your not here. I know if you had it to do over again you would not have ended it this way. God, if only we could have a second chance at that:(( If only.
I miss you all the time Nick, I love you son.
My birthday is in 2 days...I have been very emotional. You used to give me the most beautiful cards and gifts. I miss that from you Nick :(( I really really miss your cards, your gifts, your hugs for me on my birthday. It is still one of the hardest days to walk through without you.
Greg is at the ocean with his friend Travis for spring break, they left for Seaside this morning. He will be gone til Thursday, yes that means he won't be here on my birthday. It makes me sad too. I know he will call me though. He sent me a couple of pics of him and the ocean :)) that made me very happy. I miss him already.
Journey is mad at moma...she is taking the split very hard. I love her so much and want to embrace her, but you know Sissy, she is stuborn and independent!!! Please pray for your sis son, I cannot handle this stress.
I am going to a 7 am meeting in the morning, so I better get to sleep son. I love you baby, I miss you always. God I miss you my Nick Nick.
I love you more Moma~
I brought you flowers yesterday....sat in the truck for about 15 minutes thinking about everything that has happened in the past 2-1/2 years!!! I got angry with you again for leaving me, I loved you so much and I know you loved me so much too! I just don't understand why there couldn't have been another way to all this, to end your pain, your agony, your suffering!!! Couldn't there be? Couldn't there? Then I got really said because reality is...your not here. I know if you had it to do over again you would not have ended it this way. God, if only we could have a second chance at that:(( If only.
I miss you all the time Nick, I love you son.
My birthday is in 2 days...I have been very emotional. You used to give me the most beautiful cards and gifts. I miss that from you Nick :(( I really really miss your cards, your gifts, your hugs for me on my birthday. It is still one of the hardest days to walk through without you.
Greg is at the ocean with his friend Travis for spring break, they left for Seaside this morning. He will be gone til Thursday, yes that means he won't be here on my birthday. It makes me sad too. I know he will call me though. He sent me a couple of pics of him and the ocean :)) that made me very happy. I miss him already.
Journey is mad at moma...she is taking the split very hard. I love her so much and want to embrace her, but you know Sissy, she is stuborn and independent!!! Please pray for your sis son, I cannot handle this stress.
I am going to a 7 am meeting in the morning, so I better get to sleep son. I love you baby, I miss you always. God I miss you my Nick Nick.
I love you more Moma~
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