Good Morning sweet boy

I love you son:) missing you on this beautiful sunny day! A day that you would most likely be taking your bike out for a ride:) I have some good news son! I start work on Monday:) it's part time 15 hours a week, perfect to step back into life. I think it will help moma to keep my time occupied, and be with and around other people during the week:) You will never believe where I will be working though!!! I will be setting appointments for Mullers Funeral Home in Kennewick. I will be working for a man name Frank, nice older gentleman, he is an independant contracting. I will set up appointments for him to meet with people to discuss what no one wants to talk about " death". Gos knows I've had my share of that. I answered an ad in the paper and left it in Gods hands. He hired me yesterday after a second interview. I have no experience, but he liked me:). He took around and introduced me to the other ladies, I got a very warm welcome from all. Then as we were discussing the subject matter on how to go about my job duties guess who walked in the door??? Linda! Yep Linda from Sunset Memorial Gardens:) she works for Frank too. It was so good to see her we hugged and talked for the next 15 minutes:) she's a good woman and a sweetheart. So I will be seeing her on a regular basis:) Im excites to start work. There is potential to be promoted and grow in this business. God is good. I haven't read a news paper for 6 months or so. I picked one up on Thursday and saw the ad, so I went with it. I know God set it up and has good plans for me. I am good with working with others and sales, especially considering the subject matter!!!
Lloyd and Greg are sanding and painting cars this weekend. Greg is working on his Acura, Lloyd is painting the Miata. Journey is doing good, and slept in this morning:) off for the summer and she is loving it. I am still trying to get things together here at the house after the fire. But it's coming along. The insurance is taking care of us, we are blessed. Lloyd and I are doing better than we have in a very long time:) we do love each other and we are determined to make it work.
I better get going son. I love you and miss you sweet son. I will write you later okay?! Kisses hugs and all my love. I love you more ~ moma ~

I love you sweet boy, moma misses your love:( There is still not a single day my love that goes by that you are not thought of, missed and loved so very much:( I cannot express the aching and longing that continues in my heart for you son. As your moma, I know I shall always ache and miss you, for you are here in my heart forever, but your beautiful voice, presence and body are with God! I shall see you on that other shore son " some sweet day". I love you more ~ moma~

Hi my Nick Nick

I miss you my beautiful son!!! I miss you more and more. The longer you are not with me the more I miss you!!! I still sometimes...actually often can't believe you are gone! I still think it is a bad dream, a horrible nightmare that I can't seem to wake from. Most people in life think I should have been able to move on from this by now!!! If they only knew, I will never fully move on from my beautiful boy dieing, but prayerfully I will be able to smile a real smile and laugh a real laugh some day and not feel bad about it. I was asked if I was stressed today?I said not too bad but I am sad, sad inside all the time. I can't help it my heart aches constantly for you, the hurt is so deep and never ever really goes away completely!!! Most will never u derstand that!!! But I do, because you are MY son, And always will be, that is why I hurt, that is why my heart is always sad, because I miss you with great passion and great pain! I wish I could hold you Nicholas.... And never let go:( never ever say good bye and stay with you forever! But I guess I will have to wait til I get to heaven to do that:) I love you baby, I love you and miss you so so much:(
I will write you later son. When I woke up this morning the first thing I thought of was you, the second think was saying the serenity prayer!!! It's all I have to give me hope and keep me going one moment still, at a time.
I lobe you more~ moma-~

Hi Handsome

I love you my sweet handsome amazing beautiful Nick Nick!!! I miss you so very much kiddo, everyday!!! You are always on my mind, and forever in my heart son. I love you more ~moma~