Sweet dreams Angel

I love you son...missing you a lot today, even though you are deep in my heart, I wish I could hug and kiss you today son. Just wanted to say have a beautiful night in heaven, and I will get those hugs and kisses when I see you on the side. I love you more, forevermore ~moma~

Hi son

I wanted to post "Your" wings in time for The National Suicide Suvivor's Day webinar son. Many thanks and big hugs to Donna.
I love you more ~moma~

Hi son, sweet boy,

I love you sweet son, my heart misses you always... I had another peaceful day:) Thank you son...I do believe they come from God, from heaven and since that is where you are, with Gid in heaven, one with him now, I also believe my peaceful days come from you. It all makes perfect since. And though I have peace in my heart today, I still want you here with me....I shall always want you...here with me. I love you my beautiful Nick, I love you so very much Handsome. So very handsome:)
Tomorrow Nov.20th is The National Suicide Suvivors Day web cast. There will be millions to honor " You" babe and all the other suicide angels in heaven on this day in particular in unity. This will be my second time watching. God I pray we can get ahold of this mental Illness, and prevent and educate the entire Universe, so we don't have to ever lose another son, daughter, child, or loved one to suicide. I live all you angels, and especially you my son. I love you with a passion greater than any other in this world or in my life. I love all my babies. Not one more than the other, and I wish you were here for me to love on as I do Everyday love on Greg and Journey. We all miss you so much son, you were an amazing human being and you " ARE" so greatly missed.
I will write you laterhomey. Sweet dreams and sleep well tonight in heaven my boy. Give Nana kisses hugs and Shelby kisses for moms, KK:)sweet dreams angel,
I love you mite...forever more,
~moma~

Hi Nick Nick....

You are soooooo beautiful, to meee can't you seeeee, your everything I hoped for, your everything I neeeeeed....you are sooooo beautiful, to meeee.
Hi my Beautiful Boy,
I hope you had a beautiful day in heaven today. I just wanted to share with you that moma Actually had a decent day today. And when I say that, you know what I mean is that " inside" I had a good day. It had nothing to do with, what I did, where I went, who I saw or financial, material, or environmenatl!!! What I mean is, my heart, my soul, my mind, my being, my body....I felt decent today son. I'm nit sure I have been in this place before, not since you left for heaven. I " FEEL" you with me today Nick:) I have FELT you with me all throughout the day, I have FELT you here, near me, with me, very much a part of the world in which I am living. I know you are there but I really felt you here today!!! When I think of it in these terms, I actually had a beautiful day!!! It is too hard to try to continue explaining how I really felt today, the feelings and words aren't human, they are spiritual, very spiritual!!! I was just gonna write I " miss you" but after I wrote miss, I realized because of how I felt all day, that I couldn't have missed you because you were with me!!! I know son...I know:) If the wrong person gets ahold of this post, they will try and have me committed, for I know I sound half a cup of crazy. But if the truth be known, it is really a day that I haven't felt as crazy as I have for the past 2 years and I am really really tempted to say I have experienced kind of gentle Peace deep within. Everything and everyone was going on around me as crazy as ever, but in my soul I realized it was experiencing this gentle peace, regardless of the world around me. Thank you Jesus~ it can't be anyone or anything else, that can give me or cause me to experience this
" something" that I have experienced today.
I love you so much son, I love, love you Nick Nick. And the human part of me does miss you, my heart misses you. But my spirit and your spirit were together today, reunited, connected!!! I swear you have walked with me and talked with me all day. Please stay son....stay with me baby, don't leave my spirit, don't go away, stay with me stay.....stay son, stay here with me, it feels so good. The human part of me knows you are in heaven, but my spirit knows you are with me today. I don't want to go to sleep son because I am afraid that when I wake up, this " FEELING" I am having and feeling will be gone...that again you will be gone, that my spirit will weep and miss you and know you are gone!!! Don't let it be so God, please don't let it be so. I love you son and want you to stay with me son, I need you to stay with me and walk with me and talk with me.
It's raining outside Nick.....you know I love the rain:) I feel you so much with me right now...I feel you Nick!!! I feel your presence, I feel your love all inside of me, all around me, all beside me, in the room in my heart, my mind, my spirit. I live you son. And I don't care if I am actually crazy...I don't care. Because if this is how good crazy feels now, I'll take it.
You are Beautiful Nicholas James Devine, Brautiful!!! Do you hear me, you are beautiful.
I love you, I am loving you, I will always love,you, I will forever love you, I will not let go of your love. I love your love my son, it feels so pure, so beautiful, so sweet. I live you sweet boy...I love you more ~moma~ you I live you I love you.

Good night son

I love you Nick. I just wanted to say sweet dreams baby:) I miss you so much:( hugs and kisses ~ moma~