Thursday, February 18, 2010
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
I miss you Nicholas
Just For Today To my Nick, Nick (I love you more ~moma~)
Just for today I will try to live through the next 24 hours and not expect to get over Nicks death, but instead learn to live with the pain one day at a time.
Just for today I will remember Nicks life not his death, and find the comfort in all of the treasured days and moments we shared.
Just for today I will try to smile no matter how much I hurt on the inside, so that maybe my heart will soften and I will begin to heal.
Just for today I will free myself from my self-inflicted burden of guilt, for in my heart I know if there was anything in this world that I could have done to save Nick from death, I would have done it.
Just for today when my heart feels like breaking I will remember that my grief is the price I pay for loving Nick so completely, and the reason I hurt so much is because I had the privilege of loving so much.
Just for today I will find comfort in knowing that I was always there for Nick, and that I never gave up on him.
Just for today I will forgive family members and friends who looked down at Nick and could not support my commitment to my son. They truly did not understand.
Just for today I will try to live through the next 24 hours and not expect to get over Nicks death, but instead learn to live with the pain one day at a time.
Just for today I will remember Nicks life not his death, and find the comfort in all of the treasured days and moments we shared.
Just for today I will try to smile no matter how much I hurt on the inside, so that maybe my heart will soften and I will begin to heal.
Just for today I will free myself from my self-inflicted burden of guilt, for in my heart I know if there was anything in this world that I could have done to save Nick from death, I would have done it.
Just for today when my heart feels like breaking I will remember that my grief is the price I pay for loving Nick so completely, and the reason I hurt so much is because I had the privilege of loving so much.
Just for today I will find comfort in knowing that I was always there for Nick, and that I never gave up on him.
Just for today I will forgive family members and friends who looked down at Nick and could not support my commitment to my son. They truly did not understand.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
I miss you baby
My Beautiful Nick....I miss you so very much, my heart aches.
I was driving down the road yesterday and saw a young man about your age, pushing his baby girl in the stroller....just going for a stroll...it broke my heart, I just cried and cried!!! That should be you Nick, my heart is broke, and I will always be reminded of you daily as life goes on all around me I see you in everything. I miss you so much. I love you more ~moma~
I was driving down the road yesterday and saw a young man about your age, pushing his baby girl in the stroller....just going for a stroll...it broke my heart, I just cried and cried!!! That should be you Nick, my heart is broke, and I will always be reminded of you daily as life goes on all around me I see you in everything. I miss you so much. I love you more ~moma~
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Hi sweet son,
Nicholas James,
I wrote you and wrote you, but it was from my Blackberry and I don't think I did it right, I'm sorry sweet boy.
Happy Valentine's Day ,y love, my sweetheart son, my boy, my Nick Nick. i miss you so terrible son:(
I wrote you last night to tell you that we had a fire last Sunday in our home, but we are all safe, except Jade didn't make it through the fire, her heating pad caused it. Ruben was pretty bad for a few days and is recovering, thank goodness. No one was home, so of course we are all safe, and that truly is ALL that matters anymore. material things can be replaced, who says we need them anyway, we only need each other, God, love and friends who really care. I am grateful to say I am blessed to have all of them:). I miss you Nicholas, so very very much.
I love you more ~moma~
I wrote you and wrote you, but it was from my Blackberry and I don't think I did it right, I'm sorry sweet boy.
Happy Valentine's Day ,y love, my sweetheart son, my boy, my Nick Nick. i miss you so terrible son:(
I wrote you last night to tell you that we had a fire last Sunday in our home, but we are all safe, except Jade didn't make it through the fire, her heating pad caused it. Ruben was pretty bad for a few days and is recovering, thank goodness. No one was home, so of course we are all safe, and that truly is ALL that matters anymore. material things can be replaced, who says we need them anyway, we only need each other, God, love and friends who really care. I am grateful to say I am blessed to have all of them:). I miss you Nicholas, so very very much.
I love you more ~moma~
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