Good morning "Son"shine

Well Nick, I ddnt drink And I made it through another night!!! This is so hard:( help me Lord!!! I love you sweet boy...I miss you painfully...daily....everyday!!! It never ends. Just when I think I can do this...it sneaks up on me and kicks my ass!!! I miss you my handsome son...so very much:(
I love you more ~ moma~

Nick

I wish I could have a drink right NOW!!!! Especially when I feel unloved or mistreated by those who should love me the most and treat me the best.... and don't!!! Crying!!!!!!! Everytime it happens I want to numb my hurt or anger... Because when it happens it only entensifies my hurt and anger of losing you!!! I don't know how to change this around son! I just don't know!!! I only know I miss you and it still hurts like crazy, and worse than anything ever has!!! I love you and miss your beautiful face, eyes, smile, laugh, hugs and most of all your love, and the ability to love you back!!! Crying!!!!!! I luv you more son ~moma~

Your Beautiful Sissy :)

Hi Son

I love you sweetheart...I miss you so much honey. This month is so hard for Moma!!! I went to my first T.C.F. meeting last Tuesday. It was different, but good for me...I think!
Just wanted to say thank you for the feathers yesterday and the ONE penny, while Lysie, Journey and I were out taking pictures at the uptown and old fire station!!!We had a lot of fun and Journey is incredibly photogenic!!! Not to mention...just Beautiful. I want to start a portfolio for her and Greg both. Here is one we took yesterday!
I love you sweet Nick Nick...I love you and miss you everyday!!!Hugs and lots of kisses to you my son.
I will write you later.
I love you more ~Moma~