Nick

I wish I could have a drink right NOW!!!! Especially when I feel unloved or mistreated by those who should love me the most and treat me the best.... and don't!!! Crying!!!!!!! Everytime it happens I want to numb my hurt or anger... Because when it happens it only entensifies my hurt and anger of losing you!!! I don't know how to change this around son! I just don't know!!! I only know I miss you and it still hurts like crazy, and worse than anything ever has!!! I love you and miss your beautiful face, eyes, smile, laugh, hugs and most of all your love, and the ability to love you back!!! Crying!!!!!! I luv you more son ~moma~