Hi my son

I miss you my sweet boy!!! Every day of my life, I miss you!!! I read an interesting article in The Compassionate Friends newsletter today! It was about a moma who's son had passed away 22 years ago. She said there STILL isn't a day that goes by that she doesn't think about him or miss him. She also said, in her experience, she doesn't think the agonizing pain of losing a child even begins to start to lesson until 7-9 years into it!!! Wow, I thought, maybe I'm not so unusually crazy about losing my sweet Nicholas afterall! I just hope and pray that God will grant me some sort of peace and release with it all so I can live a happy life again. Help me God. I can't imagine living the rest of my life without you Nick!!! The past 19 months without you son has been very torturest, very lonely, and very sad!!! I miss you and love you so much my boy:( I just miss your beautiful spirit, smile, and face. I miss your eyes, your voice and your amazing hugs:( I miss your love for me. I miss your laughter, your jokes, and even your angry fits!!! I miss everything about you son...everything!!!
I love you my beautiful son, I love you so much. I will write you later. Hugs and kisses angel. I love youore ~ Moma~

Hi sweet boy

Happy 1st of June, my love.
I know it's been a few days since we talked!!! Boo is in Idaho again! I will see him soon though!!! I miss you son, and I love you so very much. We all went to your garden yesterday! Gosh, it is always so beautiful there on Memorial Day, with all the flags. Unbelieveable actually, there are so many flags. We brought you and Shelby beautiful flowers, flags and moma bought you a beautiful bow for your tree.
I am driving to Spokane today, dropping off Karly:( I will write you later on okay?! I miss you my sweet Nicholas James. I love you more~ moma~