Hi my son

I miss you my sweet boy!!! Every day of my life, I miss you!!! I read an interesting article in The Compassionate Friends newsletter today! It was about a moma who's son had passed away 22 years ago. She said there STILL isn't a day that goes by that she doesn't think about him or miss him. She also said, in her experience, she doesn't think the agonizing pain of losing a child even begins to start to lesson until 7-9 years into it!!! Wow, I thought, maybe I'm not so unusually crazy about losing my sweet Nicholas afterall! I just hope and pray that God will grant me some sort of peace and release with it all so I can live a happy life again. Help me God. I can't imagine living the rest of my life without you Nick!!! The past 19 months without you son has been very torturest, very lonely, and very sad!!! I miss you and love you so much my boy:( I just miss your beautiful spirit, smile, and face. I miss your eyes, your voice and your amazing hugs:( I miss your love for me. I miss your laughter, your jokes, and even your angry fits!!! I miss everything about you son...everything!!!
I love you my beautiful son, I love you so much. I will write you later. Hugs and kisses angel. I love youore ~ Moma~