Nicholas

Hi babe. Been helping Melissa today, we are running errands and went to visit ShelbyPaige and you, to say Happy New Year, sounds kinda crazy to say that at this time in my life and yet if you were here I know we would be celebrating the New Year together, lighting off fire works, banging pots and pans, and having a family party. We have the girls for the night, but we will still bang pots and pans because that is our family tradition. Greg has a few friends over too. It is the strangest new years yet, it feels very empty and lonely without you here. I miss you so very much my sweet Nick, I'll be here at midnight to say hello, I love you more ~Moma~

My Nicholas

Hi sweet son,
It is another day without you in my life. I miss you like there is no tomorrow. I wanted to say hi before going over to Melissa's. Journey is gonna watch the girls tonight while Melissa goes to see a few friends. So, we'll have them tonight, it'll be fun. I'm also helping Journey put together a hand sown quilt she is making in Home and Family for school. I'm trying to get through my days, it is so hard without you. I still can't believe you have flown away my Beautiful Angel boy, I miss you like never before, I love you more ~Moma~

Sweet Dreams

Wanted to say "Sweet Dreams" my sweet Nicholas. I made tacos for dinner tonight. First time I've cooked since you flew away. I thought about you the entire time I was in the kitchen. i know how much you loved my tacos and my cooking in general son. I miss cooking for you, I miss you coming over asking what I got to eat, and watching you eat enough food for 3 people. I miss you so much babe, sweet dreams honey, I love you more,~moma~

Missing you, loving you more

Just adding photos reminising, trippin, and going down memory lane. This is so freaking hard to do, I hate this part but it is keeping me busy with all that is in my heart and head. I guess it is what I need to do today for the moment. I miss you son, I love you more~Moma~

COUSINS Brandon and Nick age 5 How cute

Nick and Moma Age 16 Good Times

Nick and ShelbyPaige Now in Heaven together

Nick and Moma Dalton lake Nick was 14

More great memories spent with you my sweet son, I miss you so very much, love you more~Moma~

Hi my son, just wanted to add a photo of you and me. Some sweet memories here. I miss you so much I love you more~moma~

My Beautiful Son

Hi sweet son,
I miss you honey. Today is a sleepy day. The kids and I slept most of it away. Zoe stayed the night with us, we love her so much she's a great girl. I know how much you loved her too and how special you are to her, she misses you too like crazy.
I had a hard time geting to sleep last night, in fact I didn't fall asleep until 5am. I slept a lot today. I don't mind it, cause when I sleep I don't have to think about you being gone and missing you. I don't like that I missed time spent with the kids. I miss you so much son, I will never get over missing you, never. I don't know how one heart can take so much pain, stress, saddness and grief and still beat without faltering. I swear the saying of "died of a broken heart" means something different to me. I think I understand it more. They say when someone has been married for many years and one of them dies the other one will go soon, because they die of "A broken heart". I have been with you for 25 years and suddenly you are gone, I know this is what it feels like to think your dieing of a broken heart. I believe it is the deep yearning for your loved one, especially a Moma longing for her child, I don't think there is a greater longing or loss. I miss you with a great saddnedd and deep passion and all I ever want is YOU!!!
I need to get dinner going for us babe. I wish you were coming to dinner, how I miss that and will in the years to come. You are always on my mind, I miss you son, I love you more~Moma~

Sweet Dreams

Hi Son,
It's been 6 months today already since our sweet baby Shelbypaige has been gone. You went to be with her now just a little over 2 months. it feels like an eternity since I saw your face or heard your voice, and yet it seems like yesterday that we talked. I don't know how to explain it, it is all too wierd and painful to grasp. All I know is I miss you greatly. Journey, Zoe and I are watching a movie, they are having a sleep over. I wanted to say "sweet dreams" son, before I head off to bed. I think about you every minute of the day. Your family and friends miss you so much, Greg and Journey talk about you all the time, Journey cries with Moma and we give each other lots of hugs. I miss you so much my handsome Nick, sweet dreams babe, I love you more ~Moma~

Hi Son

This is my first entry to your blog. It is Monday night Dec, 29th about 9 pm, Jess, Melissa, Zoe, and Rowan are visiting. Darrell is spending the night too, we all went to Olive Garden then came over here. Melissa showed me how to create a Blog especially for you son. I miss you so much, I miss you so much it hurts. I'll be back to say sweet dreams honey before I go to bed. I miss you, I love you more~Moma~