Nicholas Nicholas Nicholas!!!!

Hi my boy, I miss you son. Everywhere I go and anything I do...I think of you, or I am reminded of you for one reason or another. We went to I-Hop for dinner tonight and a song came on about all I want is you and another one after that say's how far is heaven!!!I just sat there and slumped into saddness once again, hit with a Tidal Wave of grief that is so fresh, so deep, and so permanent and uncontrolable. I miss you so much Nick, there are no words I only want YOU, my head hurts, my heart hurts, my body hurts, my soul hurts and aches for you evey moment. I wonder more than ever, "What is Heaven like and what are you doing". I've thought about this with others, Nana, Uncle Greg, Darold, Marty, ShelbyPaige, Grampa, friends, but never before in such depth and wonderment. I do wonder what you are doing and where you are, I feel in my heart though babe that you are more than alright, you are joyful, at peace, and forever free from all pain and fear. I love you so much honey. I miss you so very much, I love you more, forevermore~Moma~