Monday, January 12, 2009

Nicholas, Sweet dreams

My Love Nick,
I love you baby and miss you like crazy, If I keep my head about this I will be surprised at myself. I just don't know how I can do this. I know there are tons of people who are going through extreme pain and suffering, but this is the worst thing that could ever happen in my life, I cannot imagine my life WITHOUT YOU. I cry everyday all throughout the day,. I look at your picture and see how much you loved "Life", and know that your actions were very very brave and courageous!!!! I don't know a braver soul. For someone who loved life so much, it had to be extremely difficult for you to live with such confliction in your heart and mind. I only wish I could have held you tight that night and loved you through it. I would have if i could have been there!!! I miss you so much it hurts babe, I love you so much that it hurts too. I miss my boy, I love you more son~Moma~

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