Sweet Dreams

Hi Baby,

I miss you more and more everyday!!!! I miss you ALL DAY, ALL THE TIME, EVERYDAY!!! I am the only one awake...AGAIN!!! I miss you so much. I want to hold you babe and never let you go, ever. I want to talk to you, love you, see you, hear you, touch you, hold you. I want you so bad son. I looked at a lot of your pictures today son, and you are so incredibly handsome, so handsome. I wanted to see you grow up some more, I wanted to see how fine you were when you were 30 and 35 and 40!!! Damn-it!!! No more "new" pictures, no more "new" memories. I am so sad about that and mad about that. I'm mad at so many people right now!!! Fuck them!! I'm gonna say "Sweet Dreams" my boy Nick, I miss you. I know you were 25 years old, that society say's your a "man", but!!!!"YOU" NICHOLAS JAMES DEVINE WILL ALWAYS BE..... "MY BOY". Night sweet son, I miss you I love you more ~Moma~