Hi My Nick

Hi sweet boy,
I miss you Nicholas :( :(
HAPPY 4th of JULY Nick.
Even though the date say's it's the 4th of July it really is just only after midnight. First one without you here with us, I can't stop thinking about all the amazing 4th parties we have had and most of them Nick were because you made the show AWESOME!!! and all your friends and all our family and friends got together and have a wonderful night.
Well, it has been some kind of day today. It was sad, happy, fun, and a lot lonely without you.
I will write in the morning son after I have had some rest, i haven't slept very good the last couple days!
Your dedication was beautiful and it was beautiful outside today too.
I miss you so fucking much! I'm having a hard time babe.....
I miss you so much that I don't know what to do with it......
I love you more ~moma~