Nicholas, Nicholas

Hi son, I miss you....
I love you sweet boy.
I couldn't get to sleep last night til 2:30 this morning. I have these nights less now, but I still have a couple days a week that I just can't seem to get to sleep.
But I knew I was having coffee with Norma this morning and we were gonna take a drive and go visit you and Shelby. So I text her like at 2 am and said hey can we meet at 9:30 instead of 8:30 so we did. She came and got me, we went and got our coffee and we headed over to see you. When you first turn into the garden if you go left there is a building there where Norma's moma's ashes are, so we went there first. Then we headed over to you and Shelby. We stayed and shared and talked for at least an hour. Then we went to see her daddy who is also there by the flag poles. Then we stopped to say hi to the swans. After that we took a drive along the river, and out to snively road, one of my treasured places of good memories with you Nick. I love it out there, and floating the river with you and your friends and all of us! Then we went to Henry's and had a bite to eat for lunch. It was great food and conversation. Then I came home. We spent some time together today and it felt good to see her and get out !
I just went out back for a few minutes because it started raining?? you know I love the rain! :) Anyway, so I go over and let Onyx in...(she hates the rumble and thunder) and I look up and there is the most beautiful full rainbow in the sky, and the sky is pink and orange, and a pretty sunset and some dark clouds. It was so pretty! It's still thundering and lightening out, its nice I love it.
I love you son, I love you more forevermore ~moma~