NICHOLAS

Hi baby,
I love you sweet boy.
I miss you so very much and I have been missing you like crazy for the past week. So many things are reminding me of you.
I am getting ready for Greg and Journey's Big day tomorrow son...HOMECOMING!!!
Lloyd is going on his fishing tour, so I'm on my own. He won't be home til??? maybe 5, we'll see. Anyway, I am preparing a formal dinner for about 8 teens and I am so happy to do it. God Nick I wish you were here so bad. Journey is gonna look like a real princess, and Greg will be more Handsome than ever in is Tux.
I have a long day ahead of me so I should get to sleep.
When Journey and I were driving around yesterday looking for her dress we couldn't help but notice fall is on it's way, the leaves and trees are changing color and the air is cooling down a night. It's still in the upper eighties during the day and beautiful outside, but winter is on the way.
All the leaves will be falling from out beautiful trees soon, I don't like that because they look so bare, but Autumn is my favorite time of the year, summer is a close second.
Everything reminds me of you, it is more than I can bare.
Nicholas I miss you so much. It hurts deeply still. When I get really sad, I turn up 106.5 and listen to good ole rock-n-roll and sing out loud from the top of my lungs to get out the frustration, madness, anger and grief. It gets me through for the moment to just lose myself in music.
I miss you Nicky, I miss you beyond belief. I will never stop missing you!!! how could I. You are always on my mind and forever in and on my heart.
"Sweet Dream" my sweet Nick. I wish I could hug you, see you, hold you and feel you loving me back. You were such a great hugger and my pride and joy. I will never understand the insanity of it all.
I love you, I love you, I love you.
I will write you later my precious son.
Sweet dreams baby, sweet dreams.
I love you more ~moma~