I love you Nicholas

Good morning son,
Hi my sweet Nicholas James,
Well son, I had an interesting day today to say the least!
Last night Journey and I baked about 140 cup cakes to take to Taylor and Alex's services today at 4:00. You met them Monday and Tuesday.
The day started of kinda strange, sissy woke me up about 6:30 and I could see she was clearly upset (crying and sad), I sat up instantly and said whats wrong baby. She said she had a "bad dream". I said come here and she lay down next to me and cried, I asked her what it was about and I wont write it here but Greg and moma were killed, daddy was gone, and she was by herself. It was an Awful, awful nightmare. I stroked her hair, pray with her right then, and told her it was ok. I told her to stay home today from school today and rest and she could help me get things ready to take to the funeral.
So, we picked Greg up from sch. and headed to the services to drop food off. When we got there we were one of the first to show up, so we just started helping with the tables, food and whatever else they wanted us to do. It was like "I" wasn't in my body today! The spirit of God was upon me and guided me through the day. We stayed for the services, had a bite to eat, saw Selena, Miranda, Raymond and Dolly, and a few others friends then left for home. When we got here I lay down about 6ish and fell asleep til after 9:30. I was emotionally drained and didn't know it. I wasn't busted up today....it was like I was not me, I was on auto pilot, only on God's grace, he did bring me to a place of service and love today. But after Journey having that nightmare I knew I had to go get it, but we all worked together today for those 2 families so we didn't think about it even though we drove right by Dream Weavers! We were on a mission. So, Journey asked me tonight to please put my dream catcher up she didn't know I took it there. So, I got one of your little ones and hung it above her bed tonight before bed and prayed with her. It has been kinda of an out of body experience today for me, and yet I came in and out. God has a way of protecting, loving, and directing our minds when we don't know whats best, He always does.
It is late and I need to go to sleep my sweet son. I miss you so very much and I love you more than words can ever express. I will always miss you and love you Nick!!!
I will write you later. You are and always will be "MY BABY".
I love you more ~moma~