Hi my sweet boy,
I love you and miss you.
Moma, Joanette, Pamela and Rachel at Fleming's for dinner in Utah. 11-4-09. It was a wonderful restaurant. The ambiance and food was fantastic. The ladies Jo and I are with are Employee's of Jus, they are beautiful, smart woman, we had a good time.
I love you and miss you.
Moma, Joanette, Pamela and Rachel at Fleming's for dinner in Utah. 11-4-09. It was a wonderful restaurant. The ambiance and food was fantastic. The ladies Jo and I are with are Employee's of Jus, they are beautiful, smart woman, we had a good time.
My day was very busy today and happy!!! It was good to be home though:)
It takes me a couple days though to get back on track when I take business trips like that. As exciting, fun and educational as they can be, it is still tough to drive fly drive all in 2 days.
Today I got out my H.P. party invites, I really pray a lot of the gals I invited will come, because this is some delicious healthy and very easy and fast ways to prepare meals. I'm looking forward to it.
I'm up late of course...almost 2 am. Me, Greg, Journ and Gabe, brought you an apple tonight! Its harvest time, all the pumpkins, gourds, and apple are rip for the picking.
I will write you later son. I miss you so much. I just stay active with everyday things that helps to not feel sad, mad or blue. I pray a lot more often again, and I'm feeling more like a scar is forming on my heart, (not as much of a gaping wound) and that one day it may heal up enough and I wont bleed to death. Knowing all the while my heart will forever be different. The scar that is forming on my heart is a reminder, and yet the LOVE in my heart for you is stronger, stronger than any other emotion I have Nick. So, I am learning how to live with and accept your death. There's really no other way to put this. Some times I think I am either falling apart or broken, and other times think I am strong and stable, oh man Nick...this stuff is hard!!! I know it is all apart of the journey. Knowing this doesn't make is easier, it softens the pain, praise God.
It takes me a couple days though to get back on track when I take business trips like that. As exciting, fun and educational as they can be, it is still tough to drive fly drive all in 2 days.
Today I got out my H.P. party invites, I really pray a lot of the gals I invited will come, because this is some delicious healthy and very easy and fast ways to prepare meals. I'm looking forward to it.
I'm up late of course...almost 2 am. Me, Greg, Journ and Gabe, brought you an apple tonight! Its harvest time, all the pumpkins, gourds, and apple are rip for the picking.
I will write you later son. I miss you so much. I just stay active with everyday things that helps to not feel sad, mad or blue. I pray a lot more often again, and I'm feeling more like a scar is forming on my heart, (not as much of a gaping wound) and that one day it may heal up enough and I wont bleed to death. Knowing all the while my heart will forever be different. The scar that is forming on my heart is a reminder, and yet the LOVE in my heart for you is stronger, stronger than any other emotion I have Nick. So, I am learning how to live with and accept your death. There's really no other way to put this. Some times I think I am either falling apart or broken, and other times think I am strong and stable, oh man Nick...this stuff is hard!!! I know it is all apart of the journey. Knowing this doesn't make is easier, it softens the pain, praise God.
Thank you for healing my heart.
All I really know for sure is "I will always love you."
I will always miss you, and anticipate the the day that you and I and all our loved ones will be reunited. My hope is in Christ and Christ alone Nick. I choose LOVE.
I love you more ~moma~
All I really know for sure is "I will always love you."
I will always miss you, and anticipate the the day that you and I and all our loved ones will be reunited. My hope is in Christ and Christ alone Nick. I choose LOVE.
I love you more ~moma~
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