Good morning my son
I love you babe, I miss you!
Halloween wasn't the same without you again! I didn't recall most of last year, what G&J were, where they went, with who or who took them, then Selena filled me in on things. I swear her and a few others were my brains for the first 2 weeks after you passed son, I couldn't remember a thing. The next few months were also hazy and numb, my brain just shut off, all emotions were put on hold but one- GRIEF!!! It took hold of me for a year.
I know that you would not have wanted me to be THAT way for so long Nick, but I couldn't help it, my love for you and longing for you are strong, and never ending, relentless!!! I know you wouldn't want to see me so sad for so long, I know it hurt your heart when I was hurt or sad when you were here with us. We are getting stronger son. Your death has made me a softer but stronger person, and you already know how and where. Your death did not and will not be in vain! God is redeeming it all, and restoring our hearts and lives, and renewing and creating even greater things than before in each of us. good always prevails and wins over evil, I am keeping the faith!
Greg and Journey were dressed up like gangsters last night, they went out with Tab, Trav, and Trish they had a great time together gonna send pic.
I had Tabitha help me color my hair last night, today i am putting high lights in. Tues Jo and I drive to Boise for dinner at a friends, then we fly out about 6 to Utah for an exclusive tour of a comp. and dinner with the chairman of this new comp. I am looking at. It should be a great adventure. You know me son, I never liked to fly before, but that day that you called and told me Shelby passed all fear of flying left me...forever!! God just has a way of fixing us doesn't He?!
I miss you so much son and my love for you is so very deep and will only grow stronger as I grow older. As long as I am alive , so you will be also! When I am with you, your love and memories will be present and shared by your brother and sister, forever, til one day we are all reunited.
Nick? you are "Still Here" with moma forever and forevermore!!!
I will write you later son.
I love you babe, I miss you!
Halloween wasn't the same without you again! I didn't recall most of last year, what G&J were, where they went, with who or who took them, then Selena filled me in on things. I swear her and a few others were my brains for the first 2 weeks after you passed son, I couldn't remember a thing. The next few months were also hazy and numb, my brain just shut off, all emotions were put on hold but one- GRIEF!!! It took hold of me for a year.
I know that you would not have wanted me to be THAT way for so long Nick, but I couldn't help it, my love for you and longing for you are strong, and never ending, relentless!!! I know you wouldn't want to see me so sad for so long, I know it hurt your heart when I was hurt or sad when you were here with us. We are getting stronger son. Your death has made me a softer but stronger person, and you already know how and where. Your death did not and will not be in vain! God is redeeming it all, and restoring our hearts and lives, and renewing and creating even greater things than before in each of us. good always prevails and wins over evil, I am keeping the faith!
Greg and Journey were dressed up like gangsters last night, they went out with Tab, Trav, and Trish they had a great time together gonna send pic.
I had Tabitha help me color my hair last night, today i am putting high lights in. Tues Jo and I drive to Boise for dinner at a friends, then we fly out about 6 to Utah for an exclusive tour of a comp. and dinner with the chairman of this new comp. I am looking at. It should be a great adventure. You know me son, I never liked to fly before, but that day that you called and told me Shelby passed all fear of flying left me...forever!! God just has a way of fixing us doesn't He?!
I miss you so much son and my love for you is so very deep and will only grow stronger as I grow older. As long as I am alive , so you will be also! When I am with you, your love and memories will be present and shared by your brother and sister, forever, til one day we are all reunited.
Nick? you are "Still Here" with moma forever and forevermore!!!
I will write you later son.
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