Hi Nicky

Hi Sweet boy,
I miss you Nicholas James Devine,
I miss my handsome boy, your beautiful hazel eyes, your smile, and your laugh. I miss your amazing sense of humor and the way you always made me laugh and smile. You were so stinkin cute, you just had a way about you that made people fall in love with you!
I went to visit your garden yesterday, and it was kinda lonely. The winter brings a different element to the garden, like it's lonely, cold, and still, quiet in a way. but, I still visit cause I like to talk to you there, I feel safe free, free to talk about anything and everything with you, kiss your picture, bring you gifts and listen to music that I have downloaded on my phone. besides i have to make sure it stays clean and free from all the leaves and dirt that fly in from the winds of the Tr-cities. i will never stop taking care of your garden...it is beautiful.
i have been doing laundry today and trying to motivate myself to start your scrap book. That will be tough to get started, but once I get going it will be another piece of the puzzle on my journey to healing. Someday I will write a book, I know I will. It's just a matter of having all the pieces to the puzzle and then putting pen to paper. First I am gonna see Greg and Journey off to college though, then I will have a lot of time to pour into my book. Right now I want to give Greg and Journey all of me, my love, attention, time and effort, they deserve that much.
I love you son and think of you all day everyday still.
Today Jess had to put Roxy down! It was a sad day, one more piece or reminder of you. She was acting out though in dangerous ways. She hurt Sam pretty good and drew blood...she is not the same. She is buried at Jessie's parents home in Finley, so we can visit her anytime. She started acting up ever since you passed. She really missed you Nick. She was YOUR dog without a doubt.
I will write you later my son. I miss you beyond words, always
i love you more ~moma~