Hi baby,We spent the better half of the day and evening at Miranda''s house for Thanksgiving Day. There were so many people there and so much love, fun and food. We had a Bonn-fire going in the back yard, the pool table was set up, music was going, Journey was on the wii and then she played "Rock Band" for the first time since you and her played it til after midnight at your house. There were several computers up, kids wrestling and running in and out the door, and great conversations everywhere. We all missed you and you would have had a great time there son. I brought my favorite picture of you and one of Shelby bear and sat them at the table while we all sat around and ate and shared. You were both there with us sweet boy! I had a rough time you not being there to hug me, love me, and kiss me. I miss you still so very very much my Nick, Nick! Raymond and Greg were both there to give me extra hugs from you son, they are such sweet, sensitive, loving boys with big big hearts, they knew moma was just a missing you. Bless there hearts.
I will write you later my sweet boy. I hate doing the "Hollowdays' without you...it's just not the same and never will be. I'm trying to adjust and be grateful for who and what I have, but it conflicts with not having you baby, I guess it always will. Some day baby I will see you on the other side, and there you will be with your gorgeous hazel eyes, open arms and your big bright beautiful smile for moma. That will be a day of pure joy and glory. Until then son, I must find a way to live well and take care of myself, Lloyd and your lil brother and sister. My hurt is still so fresh and new. You are always on my mind and forever in my heart and soul son. Never ever to be forgotten, not even for a day...never! I miss you and love you so very much Nicholas James. Hugs, kisses and all my luv luv for you.
I love you more ~moma~
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