Morning son

Good morning my sweet sweet boy. I love you, I love you. I missed you something terrible last night, I actually had a WAVE. Shit Nick they just come out of nowhere, and so unexpectedly!!! I really hate that...it takes my breath away and I am a mess for the next 2 hours.

Last night I felt it rising just enough to run to the bathroom, there I cried and cried quietly, but Greg heard me and told Dad, LLoyd came and picked me up off the floor and held me, then Greg stepped in and hugged me. I hugged Greg and he hugged me back for a long long time. I am so grateful for them both. For being men, they sure have shown me immeasurable compassion, sensitivity, and love, especially regarding missing you. They have allowed their masculinity to be present and there gentle, tender side too, to console moma. When I hug Greg it gives me comfort. I feel first his love for moma, then I feel a hug from you.

I miss you my sweet sweet Nick Nick.

I have to run out the door, be back soon, write you later. Have a beautiful day son.

I love you more ~moma~