Good morning sweet son,
I love you...I miss you.
Today I am getting Christmas cards ready to be sent out. I have met a few really neat mom's and dad's through my on line support group that I will be sending out cards to this year. Last year I was still numb and in very deep grief to even think about Christmas, let alone others during this time. This year I am committed to having a beautiful Christmas for us, and thinking of other mom's and dad's that are in my boat too:)In our group we share our love of our children who have gone on, our aches and pains, our hurt, and everything in between. We speak and understand one another. I am so GREATFUL for this group and that I found it. It has helped a lot and the people are so beautiful. We vent, cry, share, and listen to each others HEARTS. We share our lives, we talk about past and current thoughts, feelings etc. We talk about our living children and what we are doing in our lives each day to help them and ourselves move forward. To live as healthy as we can, now that we have buried one of our beautiful children. how do we live, how do we carry on, how do we reach out to help others, and whats helps when we are having a horribly rough day!
We got the tree up last night, but not decorated, we will do that tonight. We have so much, we will be donating to goodwill this year. It is so hard to look at all the personal ornaments, the ones with your pictures on them, the ones you made, and the ones I bought just for you to put on our tree over the years:( We will get through it- TOGETHER:)
Greg and Journey and I had a great time decorating your garden and your tree yesterday, it is so cute. I am sending you a pic now. Next year, I WILL BE DECORATING IT... with all blue bulbs and silver tensil. So, for those of you out there who decorated Nick's tree this year, thank you it is so beautiful. Next year I will be decorating with Greg & Journey and LLoyd. Thank you so much for your love and for thinking of Nick this year by making his tree look so beautiful. Many christmas blessings to you:)
I put a snow globe in your garden and Shelby's, and went by there this morning and it had exploded due to the freezing weather. Oops!!! Guess that wasn't a good idea, oh well. Your cute little reindeer ornament that i hung from your tree is very cute and it is made of a hard plastic so it won't shatter, so I'm glad about that:)
I miss you my beautiful son, I miss you so much. It was very hard to watch your brother and sister decorate your garden and tree, but they did it with such passion. They wanted to it, and it brought them a certain level of comfort and love from you, i saw it in their faces and eyes, I could hear it in their voice's, it was a very healthy thing to do.
The past couple of weeks I have been hearing your voice telling me to not be sad and to not cry everyday all the time for you, because you are safe, happy and free. Thank you Nick, I really need to hear that from you. You lil brat...you still haven't come visited me in my dreams!!! But I know you will when the time is right. I know you are happy, but come see moma anyway, okay?! Most importantly though is that you speak to me and I hear YOUR voice talking to me, I love that Nick. it is so clear and real. Thank you sweet boy.
I will write you later honey. You are loved and missed beyond measure.
I love you more ~moma~
I love you...I miss you.
Today I am getting Christmas cards ready to be sent out. I have met a few really neat mom's and dad's through my on line support group that I will be sending out cards to this year. Last year I was still numb and in very deep grief to even think about Christmas, let alone others during this time. This year I am committed to having a beautiful Christmas for us, and thinking of other mom's and dad's that are in my boat too:)In our group we share our love of our children who have gone on, our aches and pains, our hurt, and everything in between. We speak and understand one another. I am so GREATFUL for this group and that I found it. It has helped a lot and the people are so beautiful. We vent, cry, share, and listen to each others HEARTS. We share our lives, we talk about past and current thoughts, feelings etc. We talk about our living children and what we are doing in our lives each day to help them and ourselves move forward. To live as healthy as we can, now that we have buried one of our beautiful children. how do we live, how do we carry on, how do we reach out to help others, and whats helps when we are having a horribly rough day!
We got the tree up last night, but not decorated, we will do that tonight. We have so much, we will be donating to goodwill this year. It is so hard to look at all the personal ornaments, the ones with your pictures on them, the ones you made, and the ones I bought just for you to put on our tree over the years:( We will get through it- TOGETHER:)
Greg and Journey and I had a great time decorating your garden and your tree yesterday, it is so cute. I am sending you a pic now. Next year, I WILL BE DECORATING IT... with all blue bulbs and silver tensil. So, for those of you out there who decorated Nick's tree this year, thank you it is so beautiful. Next year I will be decorating with Greg & Journey and LLoyd. Thank you so much for your love and for thinking of Nick this year by making his tree look so beautiful. Many christmas blessings to you:)
I put a snow globe in your garden and Shelby's, and went by there this morning and it had exploded due to the freezing weather. Oops!!! Guess that wasn't a good idea, oh well. Your cute little reindeer ornament that i hung from your tree is very cute and it is made of a hard plastic so it won't shatter, so I'm glad about that:)
I miss you my beautiful son, I miss you so much. It was very hard to watch your brother and sister decorate your garden and tree, but they did it with such passion. They wanted to it, and it brought them a certain level of comfort and love from you, i saw it in their faces and eyes, I could hear it in their voice's, it was a very healthy thing to do.
The past couple of weeks I have been hearing your voice telling me to not be sad and to not cry everyday all the time for you, because you are safe, happy and free. Thank you Nick, I really need to hear that from you. You lil brat...you still haven't come visited me in my dreams!!! But I know you will when the time is right. I know you are happy, but come see moma anyway, okay?! Most importantly though is that you speak to me and I hear YOUR voice talking to me, I love that Nick. it is so clear and real. Thank you sweet boy.
I will write you later honey. You are loved and missed beyond measure.
I love you more ~moma~
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