son

Just for today I will smile no matter how much I hurt on the inside,
for maybe if I smile a little,
my heart will soften and I will begin to heal.

Moma just wanted to say Happy "New" year son,

I took Greg to the dentist today and guess what....he got his braces off, so it is a Happy "New" year for him :) He is so excited about it. Well while I waiting for him I stepped out of the car to smoke and when I got back into my car, K-Love was on and there was a story about how paying it forward to others who have helped up, and she wanted to give a one time sponsorship to show her appreciation of all that the Lord has done for them and blessed them financially this year after much hardship. I have stuggled to keep the tears that have wanted to rise up that lie just beneath my heart beat. Missing you a lot today son. So, I got back into my car and fastened my seat belt, and when I looked down to the buckle there sitting on the lock of the seat belt latch was a penny just sitting there. It couldn't have come at a more appropriate time. I just smiled creid and thanked you for Nick. Thank you sweet boy for giving me the perfect sign that you are always with me, and when I am very down you seem to be able to lift my heart up to joy and comfort in an instant. I love that. Just by sending a penny just when I need to know you are with me and bringing me comfort at just the right time. You know I keep them all in a frog bank. The moment I realized which was early on, I decided I would collect them all and count them up at the end of the year so, I will do that now. There are 73 total. Wow, I don't remember exactly the day I realized you were sending them to me but I would guess it was in Nov. after we had your celebration of life. I bet if I looked back at some of my earlier posts I would find the first time I realzed you starting doing this.

Just wanted to share.

Well, we all tried to remember what we did this new years eve and none of us 4 could remember, we were all still in the "shock" bubble and on auto-pilot so it is no surprise at all. But again I bet if I looked back at some of the ealry posting I will find my the answer to that mystery too.

God has been doing a work in my heart son, you would be glad if you were able to. I know there are no tears or sorrow in heaven but I wonder if when good things happen you know!!! hummm, something to ponder.

I love you so much sweet boy, and I miss you a lot today.

I am sending a long a photo of our beautiful snow covered willow out front. It is so beautiful when covered with know.