Just for today I will free myself from my self-inflicted burden of guilt,
for deep in my heart I know if there was anything in this world
I could of done to save my child from death,
I would have done it.
Hi my sweet Nicholas James, I miss you my sweet angel of God~
I'm up early so I can get started with putting away all these Christmas decorations, time to begin a "NEW" year. You will come into this new year with me though son, you are always with me. Hopefully this year I can take better care of myself first, then Lloyd, Greg and Journey. Hopefully I won't neglect my beautiful friendships because of the pain I have suffered in "09". 2008 and 2009 completely blind sided moma, us, we were so shocked at how your life went from having this beautiful family to devastation and complete annihilation . I will never be able to make sense of any of it...but I do know God will heal my broken heart and shattered soul, because He loves us.
Journey is at cheer practice right now and Greg's still asleep, so I better go get him stirring. Lloyd and I wee up early, he's gonna get the next crx on line for sale. He leaves tomorrow for a few weeks so we have a lot to do before he takes off.
I will write you later my sweet Nick. I love you with all that I am, with all that I have, and with every fiber of my being. You have no idea how very, very much I miss you Nicholas.
Hugs and kisses til next time
I love you more ~moma~
for deep in my heart I know if there was anything in this world
I could of done to save my child from death,
I would have done it.
Hi my sweet Nicholas James, I miss you my sweet angel of God~
I'm up early so I can get started with putting away all these Christmas decorations, time to begin a "NEW" year. You will come into this new year with me though son, you are always with me. Hopefully this year I can take better care of myself first, then Lloyd, Greg and Journey. Hopefully I won't neglect my beautiful friendships because of the pain I have suffered in "09". 2008 and 2009 completely blind sided moma, us, we were so shocked at how your life went from having this beautiful family to devastation and complete annihilation . I will never be able to make sense of any of it...but I do know God will heal my broken heart and shattered soul, because He loves us.
Journey is at cheer practice right now and Greg's still asleep, so I better go get him stirring. Lloyd and I wee up early, he's gonna get the next crx on line for sale. He leaves tomorrow for a few weeks so we have a lot to do before he takes off.
I will write you later my sweet Nick. I love you with all that I am, with all that I have, and with every fiber of my being. You have no idea how very, very much I miss you Nicholas.
Hugs and kisses til next time
I love you more ~moma~
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