I am getting ready to go to my grief class, and I will write you later when I get home, okay. I miss you sweet boy, I love you more forever and ever,.
I love you more ~moma~
Hi sweet boy,
Well my class went well again, it has been very good for moma. I am just know accepting the fact that I will always grieve over losing you, but that I can go on living with that grief. I am learning how to live with the grieve and learning how to express it in a healthy way, so it doesn't stay contained within my heart and soul, making me sick. I have been sick, heart sick over losing you. I know I will never Fully stop grieving over losing you, but I believe I can and will one day be able to laugh, love and live again and not let that grief overtake me or my life. I know you would want me to laugh, love and live again too. You will ALWAYS be a part of my life, always in my heart and forever loved and missed by moma. I miss you so much right now, and I still cry everyday for you. but I have opened my heart to receive healing, because I don't want to live heart sick for the rest of my life. but I still do miss you all the time and I miss you with all that I am. i really do baby, miss you with all that I am. I can't wait til that day that I will see you, hug you and hold you again in my arms, and it will be forever son.
i love you with all that I am.
After my class I went to watch Journey's cheer. We came home and watched a little T.V. and now I am on the computer.
I have found a really good group on line that has been a wonderful support to me. it is all parents who have lost a child or children to suicide.
After I complete my grief class I am going to get involved in suicide prevention. I met a lady on POS that lives in Hermiston who's son died by suicide Aug27Th of 09. We are gonna meet up some time soon. She has a daughter the same age as Journey, who also likes forensics, so they already have 2 things in common that they love, their brothers and forensics.
I better say good night sweet son. I love you so much Nick, Nick.
i will write you later,
Love hugs and 3 kisses my Beautiful Boy.
I love you more ~moma~
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