I can shed tears that he is gone, or I can smile because he has lived.

I can close my eyes and pray that he'll come back, or I can open my eyes and see all he's left.

My heart can be empty because I can't see him,
or I can be full of the love we shared.

I can turn my back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or I can be happy for tomorrow "because" of yesterday.

I can remember him only that he is gone,
or I can cherish his memory and let it live on.

I can cry and close my mind, be empty and turn my back.

Or I can do what he'd want: smile, open my eyes, love and go on."

The truth is dear son, I will do both for the rest of my life:

I am so very grateful for your very life and the 25 precious years you were here with me and all the good, happy loving memories we shared. I will CHERISH them forever~ therefore I shall SMILE, and live on.

I will never forget the day I knew you were gone, I will always miss you, long to hold you and want to see you as long as I live. I will never be the same, forever changed. I will never stop crying for you, for you are my SON~ even in death, you are MY SON Nick!!! My heart will always be empty where your presence and love filled it up.

I love you more ~moma~