I love you sweet boy,

Hi my Beautiful Boy...I love you so much, and miss you horribly today.
Greg went to take his driving part of his test and he PASSED of course with flying colors, the instructor said he did very well and particularly with his parallel parking!!! I'm so proud of him:) I only wish "YOU" Nick were here to go for a ride with your lil brother in his car with his "new" very first license:( I know Greg is thinking something about you...not sure what, but I know he has thought of it, I feel it in my heart. I know he has thought I wish you were here Bro, to go for a ride with me!!! I will gently ask him if he has thought of that today to hopefully allow him to release the burden some and "TALK" about it "YOU"....he still doesn't do well "talking" about you! My heart is so happy for him...so happy, I wish you were to be with him on this special day, and everyday!!! My heart hurts for him, for that same reason!!!
We, me Lloyd, Greg, Journey, love and miss you so so very much!!! Every day moma misses you, not a day or probably an hour in a day goes by that I DON'T think of you, talk to you, cry for you, long for you, misssssssss you, love you! I still to this day say to myself.....I still can't believe your gone!!! I still can't believe you took your life baby...even though I know you were so very tormented!!! It is a very difficult thing to come to terms with! I suppose I may never really be ok with that, because it is not natural for our children to die before us, as you yourself experienced with Shelby, it is not normal...at all.
I miss you more than you could have ever known!!!
I will write you later, love mommy.
P.S. He should be back soon. I am so proud of him son, I know you are too. I will take a ride with him for the first time with his license, and then I will take one with him for you, okay? I know you two boys would be off and running all the day and night if you were here!!!
I love you more son, that's all I can write, right now:(
Wishing you were here....missing you for me, and for him (Greg).