Hi my son

Hi Beautiful Boy,
I love you baby...miss you unbelievably so!!! Today it has been 20 months since you died! Honestly Nick, writing the word "died" referring to you is still so painful and unbelievable!!! I think it will Always be unbelievable to me, but I am hoping that some day...it won't be ao painful:( I miss you Nicholas...I miss you so much. I wish I could hug you, kiss you, hear your voice, and talk to you! I wish I could take you to lunch at Red Robins, float the river with you, or invite you over for tacos and movies! I wish I wish I wish!!!
The cemeteries are enforcing the rules about leaving things there. Last week several of them removed everyones things, including your light and cherub. Maybe that's why Brandon told me to take home your turtle last month, he knew the rules would be enforced!!! I'm so glad he told me. So I use your turtle for our front door to prop it open on breezy days:) I guess I will create a beautiful garden here at home, and put all your beautiful " things" in it, along with your chimes and lots of beautiful glads!!! I'm gonna plant a beautiful tree first then build your garden.
I love you sweet son, we all miss your love, hugs, kisses and presence in our daily lives:( I miss you, I miss you!!! I will write you later my son. Kisses to you my love.
I luv you more ~ Moma ~