Kisses to you Nicholas, moma misses you so much, the holidays are the worse for me still, those and night time. I still have intrusive thoughts throughout my days and difficulty falling alseep. In the morning you are the first thought in my head. But, I have progressed a bit in my grief son. I used to wake up every morning after you died for 2 straight years saying "Oh god it's morning" now I say " Oh good morning God". I still miss you as ever before, and cry for you daily. But I do have more sweet memories and tears joy instead of agony and oain:) I am so very grateful Nick that I was blessed for 25 years of a beautiful life with you. Thank you for loving me. I will always love you even beyond the grave, for all eternity.
Today is 12-11-10. This date we won't see for another 100 years. I won't see it though, I'll be with you sweet boy :) :) :)
It's snowing again...we had a break for 2 days then it started again today. I love watching it snow, and it does remind me of you so much:) That's a good memory!!! I miss you Nick....so so much:( I miss your love, your smile, your laugh, your voice, your hugs, your eyes, your beautiful cards you would buy for me, you coming in the house and heading straight for the frig and saying you got something to eat moma?, I miss I miss I miss....
I will write later sweet boy.
I love you more moma~
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