Christmas was always about Jesus and His love for us, but it was also about giving gifts to my children and seeing thier faces light up as they were surprised by all the wonderful they received on Christmas Day. God how I miss the enjoyment of shopping, the fun in wrapping the gifts, the saound of your voice and laughter on Christmas Morning, and all the memories and pictures we would take each year. I miss seeing you grow, watching you change, into a more beautiful man thean you already were! I miss your hugs and "hello pretty Moma" on Christmas morning, I miss seeing your beautiful face, I miss you hugging me. I miss you playing with your little brother and sister, and helping them put thier new toys and things together to make them work. I miss having you at the dinner table with us and watching you eat like you were eating for an army:)
I am cooking dinner this year though, all of it, I'm going all out. I will have a place for you at the table son, you will be here in spirit if not at all.
I miss you so much today it hurts!!!
Lloyd and the kids went to Gr, Pielstick's of course. I stayed back to finish cooking our Christmas dinner. I do not feel like putting on a FAKE-FACE or pretending to smile just to please or appease ANYONE!!! Truth is, I am sad and missing you and choose not to share my grief with them. It is such a private personal pain I feel losing you son, and they do not understand my heartache!!!
I love you more than words can say, and I miss you beyond explaination!!!
I will write you later my son. I just wanted to send you hugs and kisses today. Please give Nana, Greg, ShelbyPaige, and the rest of our family hugs from Moma. Tell Jesus I said Happy Birthday and even though I don't act like it sometimes, I do love Him.
I miss you, I miss you, I miss you....I love you more, forevermore,
Moma~
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