May 29, 2009
Good morning Nicholas,I love you babe, I miss you so very much still. I tell you, there isn't hardly a minute that goes by in a day that I am not missing you. I remember when my moma died, I cried out for her daily. I remember too everytime I had a hard day, or a difficult moment, I would cry for my moma, and I wanted her so bad!!! I now do that with you and Nana!! I still walk around the house and find myself saying, "Are you really gone, my Nick did he really die?" It is so very hard for me to accept still, and I still cry all the time. My heart is heavy and aching today for you my Nick. I miss you, your hugs, your love, your face, yourlaugh,your life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just want you back my Nick!!! I miss you unbelievably. I will never say good bye to you...never. I will see you again my Nick in heaven...I know your there my boy, with Nana and ShelbyPaige. I will write you later my Nick. I miss you I love you more ~moma~