I miss you Nicholas

June 10, 2009
Hi Nicholas,
I love you babe and I miss you still.
Well, today was the last day of school for your Brother and Sister, they are so jazzed about that. They both have parties to go to. Journey has gym onight and maybe a friend staying over. Tomorrow Greg has another birthday party. I talked to Joyce yesterday and I am planning a trip to Ca. in the next few weeks. I will go visit her, your Auntie Julie, maybe Mark and Kim, and some other family and friends. I haven't been back since I last saw you son. It will be hard but It will be nice getting out of here for a while.
I love my besty so much and she encourages me, loves on me, is gentle with me and we have great conversations. She is a very none-judgemental person, so when were talking no matter who or what it's about she is always so loving and forgiving of others. She really is all about loving others. It is some good medicine that I could use right about now. We plan to go to the Beach while were there. Greg will probably help me drive. That is a bonus because it is getting to be a longer drive each time I take it. But no drive could have been longer than the one I took down there Oct. 23 2008. I felt like my whole life had just passed me by and yet it felt like it took 100 days to get to you. It was god aweful.
I love you my boy. I miss you. I miss seeing you, hugging you. I miss your laugh, your smile, your eyes, and most of all I miss your love honey. I will write you later my boy. I miss you way up to the sky and there is no end. kisses, hugs, and all my love forever.
I love you more ~moma~