Good morning son

Sherman Island, Ca 7/27/09

My sweet Nicholas,

We love and miss you so very much, Greg, Journey and Moma

I know it is afternoon but morning for me. I miss you sweet boy so very much.

First I want to tell you a little about our trip to Cali, your favorite place Nick. I know you loved it there and always wanted to go back and live there...so in a way you did! It is so beautiful there and there is so much to do and see. The mountains, trees, lakes, rivers, oceans, hills, cities, and countrysides are all so beautiful, its no wonder you loved Cali.

When we were there we saw old friends, Joyce, momo, Curtis and Adreanna to name a few. We saw family too and spent 3 wonderful days with your Aunt Kim and Uncle Mark and all the kids. I took them to Sherman Island and we had a great time. Later I talked with Andrea and she said she took Dylan out there for the first time and he loved it. It is only about 20 minutes from their home. I believe it will be the new hot spot for them. We picked berries, watched wind surfers, and kite surfers too. There was an old wreaked boat out there about 20 feet off the shore that all the kids swan out to. They had a blast son. God how I missed you on that day, all the kids were there but you. It somehow didn't seem right, I was missing you a lot that day. Part of me didn't want to go out to Discovery Bay, too many memories, too raw! Then when it was time to go back to Sac. we didn't want to leave there. It was bittersweet son, life seems to be like that a lot since you have been gone! Ugh.

Momo played the guitar for us and we loved hearing her even in her raspy old voice she still sounds beautiful. She is such a trip. She lost her Nick last year too, her Nicodemus. He was her puppy dog and he was old, but that was her baby as you are mine. I miss you son.

The kids went to Sun Splash while in Sac. It is a huge water park. They have evening sessions from 7-11 which made it nice because it wasn't too hot, no one got sun burned either:)

We drove to Clayton and placed flowers on Mt. Zion Place son. Journey sat and cried as did Mo ma the first time I visited and the last. We just held each other it was a very surreal moment in time. We went to visit Jay Joyce's brother who is a Pastor in Alamo. He also has his own construction business. Of course I thought of you when we saw the builders working on the mansion. I wish it could have been you son, you were so damn deserving of every good thing in life. You wouldn't believe how many random thoughts like that go through my head on a daily and regular basis!!!

I just miss you terribly and think about you constantly. I want you back son I swear I want you so bad!

I hope to send you a picture of me and the kids at Sherman Island. I love you so very much my beautiful son Nick. I miss you beyond description I swear.

Look how big your brother and sister are getting Nick!!!

I miss you, I miss you. I love you more ~moma~