Hi Nicholas

I love you sweet son,
I miss you so much.
Today Journey and I watched a couple movies. Greg and Lloyd are at the shop working on the Audi again. Greg loves cars...working on them, looking at them, driving them, talking about them. he is taking 2 different classes this year cars/machanics. He is doing that instead of art this year. Next year he will pick up art again. Journey has his art teacher from last year, he said she is great.
I am reading a book called "Healing is a choice". I do want my heart healed, but I want all of our hearts healed and well again. Journey still has difficult days, mostly nights though. Greg surely is speaking his mind about matters too. I am so proud of both of them. I am so glad they share their hearts and thoughts with me. I am getting back on track son. They miss you so much, they loved you so very much too. Your death has been the greatest loss in our lives Nick! I hope and pray they use the strenght and power of God to work through this, their feelings, and their thoughts and all the emotions.
I love you baby, I love you so much son. I miss you terribly.
I would like to go to Ca. in Oct. Kris Kristofferson is going to be there. He comes to Old Sac. every year in Oct. I will bring you flowers babe if I come.
I will write you later son. I love you, I love you more ~moma~