Hi my sweet boy

My dear Nicholas James,
I miss you son, miss you miss you miss you!
I'm going down to Abadans today to have Nikki help me make copies of a crap load of pics...some of you some of Greg and some of Angie's wedding. She is helping me get things organized, I am so greaful for her help. Her Father owns the place, but she is a graphic designer and an amazing one at that! She has been very helpful and generous with her time and knowledge.
I re-read your police report today and have been doing some research. UGH!!! It is all so hard. I spend time on this a little here and there, trying to put all the pieces together, or better than they are anyway. I don't have a good feeling about what happened to you that night son, and I am doing some detective work! So, if anyone is reading this and it has caused a raised eye brow, just know...I'm looking!
So, Journey comes home from school yesterday and tells me they are having a yea get this..."A Suicide Prevention Specialist" coming to her health class this Friday. Journey wrote her teacher an email stating she chooses not to sit in on the class and asked to go to the library, because the subject is still too fresh and painful. He wrote her a beautiful response and said he understands and that he will work it out with her where to go during that class. He also had Greg last year, Greg went through the class...he said it was alright, that they dont talk about "Suicide" they mainly hit on what the signs are and how to prevent!!! Anyway, Journey wants No Part in it! I don't blame her at all. She left the class room after talking to her teacher about 'YOU" and was walking down the hall crying. Greg spied her and came and gave her a hug, I was so glad to hear he was there to console her, what a blessing. One thing for sure Nick, no matter how close they were before, your death WILL and already has in some ways made them realize, they now only have each other and HOW important that is and will be in the years to come. Greg WILL be here and is now, to protect, love and help Journey and she will be there for him. They are good kids Nick, you were all very good babies and smart. You were funny, lovable, daring and beautiful babies and kids.
I love you so much sweet boy, you are never off my mind, always in my heart and forever my boy! I miss you so much son.
G&J will be home soon better get going. I'll write you later son.
I love you more ~moma~