Hi my sweet boy,
You've been on my mind all day! So, a couple hours ago I brought the comp. in my room and decided to listen to music. I found a few amazing songs I never heard before, and listened to a few of my favorites. One of the new ones is called "Still Here" by one of my favorite artist..Natasha Bedingfield, it is a Beautiful song Nick, it reminds me of you and the first time I listened to it I cried and cried and realized you really are very much "Still Here". I grabbed the necklace around my neck with your ashes and held it tight, but I felt you so much IN MY HEART!!! You are with me baby, you are with me always, always son. Just not in body, but all the way in my heart, spirit, mind and soul. I will always feel you, know you have you in my heart and soul, there's no other place for you.
I miss you being here in body though my Nicholas James, I cannot lie. But I do have a flicker of joy in my mind knowing you are safe in Jesus arms. If you had to be anywhere but in my arms son, I am grateful to KNOW you are in His. I will see you again and rejoice forevermore with you, God, the angels and all our loved ones there with you now.
I love you so son.
Today was a good day Nick, nothing big, bad or special, just trying to be in the moment without a breakdown or stress in an entire day.
I love you so and I will write you later my Angel Boy.
I love you more ~moma~