NICHOLAS

I year ago today was the last time I heard your voice, kissed your face and felt your warm arms around me.You left for your trip to Cali on this morning in 2008. I got up and came and got you because Jess called me and said she was running late to work, and asked me if I would take you and your Dad to the airport. I AM SO DAMN GRATEFUL SHE DID!!!I came to your house and helped you get your things together and loaded up. You were lolly-gagging along a bit, then picked up your DAD. He was a lil upset cuz he didn't want to be late and miss the plane, but I got you there in plenty of time. I told him to "Be Nice" to you cuz he was being a little grumpy.

Once we were there and the bags were unloaded, we said our "GOOD-BYE"S. Little did I know...it would be our final EMBRACE, KISS, SMILE, HUG and GOOD-BYE for now!!!It is beyond ME how I have made it through this far without you here and knowing how much you went through until that FINAL day on OCT. 23rd.

I woke up early early this morning and watched the sun rise with you son, it is so beautiful, and there was one star in the sky still visible, still shinning bright...that is your star. Journey texts me in the mornings after she gets on the bus and tells me to go outside and take pictures and to look at the sky because it is so pretty in the morning's here in WA. This morning it was magnificent!

I miss you...beyond human comprehension.

I love you more ~moma~