Hi son,

Your sis and the girls at the cheer gym. Beth her coach is standing next to your sis. This was an all night "Cheer Party" and sleep over in the Gym, they called it "Casino Night".

I love you Nicholas James, I miss you still everyday, I know I always will.

Something cool I want to share with you though. This is the third day in a row that I woke up and didn't feel "that overwhelmingly deep burden and painful longing" for you. It doesn't mean I don't miss you everyday second of everyday, because I do. It simply means this, God had shifted the pain, taken some away, and restored some peace in my heart, mind and soul.

Tonight I am making a stew from scratch for us for dinner. Journey and I are gonna sit in the Hot tub for a bit, then I will read my book for a bit and turn in early.

Tomorrow is the first class for my S.O.S. grief group. I am looking forward to it, as God knows I need some understanding and healing.

I love you Nicholas James, and not a single day goes by that I don't think of you. As of right now, I haven't cried for missing you first time ever since you passed son. But the night's not over and I will probably cry when I go to bed.

Greg and I went to your garden today, I left you a note, cleaned up all the remnants from Christmas and the area around it. I will bring you some fresh flowers on Friday.

I love you sweet son, I miss you so very much.

I will write you later

I love you more ~moma~