Hi Baby

I missed writing you yesterday:(
I love you sweet son. I talked about you with about 5 different people though, it is so very good and healing for me to do that. I am able to share your story with people, so that they understand you didn't just kill yourself, and not have any regard for life what-so-ever!!! I am able to share with certain people the Whole truth, what causes suicide, and the mental state of one who contemplates it and actually does it!!! There are so many reasons, and sometimes we see there is never an answer. This is something that needs WAY more study and Attention son. If I have my way, I will do all i can to help!!!
I am sorry that more wasn't done about depression before Shelby died, if there was it is very quite possible...you would still be here with me now!!!
I had a busy day yesterday i tell you. Today i decided to try and keep it simple and to rest, even if only for a bit. I did just that. I still had things to do, but I wasn't stressed. I have noticed that when I don't get enough sleep I am way more emotional, in fact I end up very weepy all day. So I try to get as much rest as possible.
I will write you later.
I love you and miss you so very much Nicholas James Devine. Thank you for helping moma, and for the penny's this week:) I got all 3 of them. My class is going good and helping me a lot.
i love you sweet son.
I love you more ~moma~