I love you, sweet son

I miss you Nick, I miss you so much. This week was hard at class. I missed 2 weeks, and fell a bit behind in my reading, but I realize I'm not really behind at all!!! I am EXACTLY where I need to be!
I had another very busy day with appointments, with the house, and Greg had a Dr's Appt, everything is good with him. he has been drinking protein shakes and healthy energy drinks for 4 days straight now, I am so proud of him. he doesn't drink nearly as much soda as he used to, and he still drinks a ton of water.
Journey Is back from Las Vegas, they took second at "National". She was so exhausted after getting home. She slept the whole next day. She is very sad about you son, and has been very ANGRY that you died. She feels alone, abandoned, and angry. I am helping her through some tough times right now. Plus her Daddy is away for a bit, and she is stressed about cheer, her grades and life!!! Poor angel, please pray for her Nick, she needs love, comfort, peace and understanding. She is so sad you are gone!!! She said she just wants her life back...God do I know what she means!!! Big time.
Today I met Marnie, Dustins moma, from POS.I'm sure you and Dustin have already met:) It was good. It will be 6 months for her on the 27th. God, I was a wreck at 6 months, my hat is off to her!!! I have invited her to come visit me again this Sat. I am gonna bring her to your garden and show her your tree. I was there last week and Brandon stopped by to say hi because he saw me pull in. They lost their baby too, his wife was pregnant:( He was very sad. While we were talking he looked over at your tree and looked back at me and said you can have that turtle we gave him and take it home if you like!!! You can by him another one and put it here if you want to. I started crying when he said that. So, I have your turtle son, it brings me great comfort knowing you liked it so much that they gave it to you, and now that you are gone, they gave it to me:) I may buy another one for your tree this summer. I'd like to get a garden ornament for your garden for sure, I just don't know what yet.:) At 4th of July, I will make your tree happy with fireworks and red, white and blue colors. None of anything really matters now that your gone, as far as that kinda thing goes!!! I miss you so much son.
I better get to bed it is another late night. House keeping in the morning, another appt out at the house, and some important calls to make. Our home is coming right along. Say prayers for us that it all continue to go smoothly, okay?!
i love you sweet son, I miss you terribly.
I will write you later.
Hugs, and 3 kisses to you my Beautiful Boy, Nick, Nick.
I love you more ~moma~