Hi babe

I was just watching tv and started thinking about you again. Ealier tonite Lloyd went and bought us pumpkins to carve, tomorrow. I'm gonna carve out your name on my pumpkin and put a big candle in it fir you babe:) I was thinking about how we have carved pumpkins together over the years, and how hard it has been doing it without you:( this will be our 3rd holloween without you, even though you have only been gone just 2 years. Sadly, you left us just 8 days short of holloween!!!
I had a sweet memory of you sweety just sitting here thinking about you and holloween. Actually 2. The first memory I have was your second holloween, you were just 15 months old:) I dressed you up in red jammies, the kind that have footies. I took a duffel bag that was multi-colored and cut holes in it for your hands and feet and made like a body suit for you, it was so cute:) Then I put a pair of red tennis shoes on you that were 2 sizes too big for you. But this wasn't the best part of it:) I teased your hair out and it was a big fro. Your hair was so curly! Then I proceded to paint your face as a happy clown:) you were so damn cute, so cute. I will never forget when I was done and let you see yourself in the mirror.You didn't recognize yourself, infact you were scared of yourself!!! You started crying and I felt so bad:( I didn't know that you would have that kind of reaction. I quickly turned you away and hugged you. I think I gave you a lolly pop and then we took you to an in door holloween party, where there were games candy punch and lots of fun. I will never forget that as long as I live Nick:)
then another holloween memory followed thereafter. You were just 2 months, it was your first holloween. I remember taking a pillow case and cutting it to fit over your head, and cut out eye and nose holes for you. Moma and daddy put you in your stroller and took you around the block. It was so cute. You loved holloween from the beginning son. We will be missing you again this holloween too. I will take a picture of your pumpkin and send it along sweet boy. I miss you so much sweet boy.
I love you mire ~moma~