Nicholas

Today son you were to turn 28!!! We were all supossed to sing "Happy Birthday" to you....crying, cring, crying :((  :((  :((  :(( I will never get through your birthday without having a complete break down, no matter how long you been gone.....had a HORRIBLE HORRIBLE FNGING day!!!! God I miss you so bad it's hurts, it hurts to breath, it hurts to be awake knowing you arent here, it hurts to not see you and kiss you and wish you a happy birthday today son. It hurts to not give you a special gift on your birthday, bake you your favorite  cake and sing you happy birthay :((  :((  :((  :((....It hurts to not hear your voice and hear you laughing:(( It hurts, It hurts, It hurts.
It doesn't help when others are mean to me either....what happen to COMPASSION???
Cruel, rude, and insensitive people...what's wrong with people son???? Nicw onw minute then in your face the next.
Some times life is a poece of cake and others it plan sucks!!! Today SUCKED real bad.
I have thought about you and all your birthdays...all 25 that you spent with us here on earth, and I am GREATFUL for each one...however I wanted more...many more!!!
I miss you like a crazy woman...a crazy moma bear.
 I love you I love you I love you...up to the sky and back again.
I love you more, Moma~