Hi baby,

Sweet boy i love you,
I wake up every morning missing you...sometimes it feels like a chore just to take that first breath! My heart is filled with so much of you that it makes me smile and cry! You are BEAUTIFUL!!! My heart is full of you today.
Today jess and I helped "D" today take care of some important things, it was part of my productive day, along with helping Journey with some L.A. homework, cleaning and errands. I just read back to her what she wrote so she could type it out faster :) Essays!!! remember those Nick???Does Arintina ring a bell...6th grade? I bet it does. You waited til the last minute to do that sucker and Gr. bonnie helped you do it. That was a good memory too. but it was fun to help and she's doing great. I didn't like la in school, but now i love it. Greg is a great speller too. Journey is taking Spanish again this year. Which reminds me, in 7th gr. you took French and Spanish at the same time and got "A's" in both, I was so impressed and proud of you:) But she loves spanish and she's doing good in H.S.
Greg finished the last tire on the Audi, now they are all sparkling new and shiny. Almost ready to sell. Good deal. Ins. finally is settled, it is a good thing too. It couldn't be at a better or more needed time than right now.
We love you and miss you our Beautiful Nick.
Journey was in her room earlier tonight for a half hour or so and she comes out with this beautiful oil painting of flowers and clouds and a sunshine, and said it was for ShelbyPaige. We miss our Beautiful ShelbyPaigers too. Both Greg and Journey channel a lot of...what should i say "grief, thoughts & ideals" through drawing, painting etc. Honestly, they are amazing little artists. you know lloyd is too so they Definitley get it from him cause I can't draw very good. I have seen how it can be an expression of oneself. How one feels is always revealed in writing or drawings! Especially if it is a God-Given talent or gift. I love that. You did that too Nick! You drew, created cool looking designs, and we spent many a hours coloring when you were younger:) Now that was a good ole memory, we would sit for hours and color. I have your drawings and schoolwork and art. Thank you Nick for all the beautiful gifts. Thank you for ALL different and beautiful "Expressions of You"! You were a Giver...the apple doesn't fall far from the tree, does it :) I miss you Nicholas.:( always, so does lloyd, greg and journ. We will always love you and miss you. We are good babe, i want you to know that. I pray our hearts continue to heal, love and believe.
God is good and still sits on the throne Nick!
I will write you later my son.
Hugs and 3 kisses, cuz 1 is not enuf!!!
I love you,
I love you more ~moma~