Q- viewed: This was one of this weeks questioned asked from our POS group. Just sharing. One of the worse days of my life. The question was "What was your son/daughter wearing when they were viewed or before burial or cremation"?
Fri Apr 9, 2010 10:06 am (PDT)


I viewed Nicholas at the morgue. Because of the extent and graphic wounds on his neck, Nick was covered up with a white blanket to the bottom of his chin. There was a part of me that wanted to pull that blanket down and look at him, but the other part of me just wanted to remember his beautiful face and hair, so i didn't. I also asked if they would please put one of his arms out so I could hold and kiss his hand, they did. I always loved his hands too. They had done a complete autopsy on him. I am grateful his face was not badly bruised or injured so he looked.....well it was Nick!!! So I got to touch him, kiss him, stroke his hair and hug on him. I was the first to visit with him for about a half hour, before his father and girl friend came in to see him, then other family came about an hour later. I requested that time alone with him as his moma. It was respected. I clipped some of his hair, and spent some private time with him also after everyone
else left the room. I wanted to pick him up off that table and take him home with me right then and there. My sister grabbed me and pulled me back from him, as I think she could sense what I was about to do. Man, am I glad now that she did!!! I didn't want to leave him there...I didn't want to ever leave him. I freaked the hell out as I left and wanted to go back in and get him. As I turned to go back, his Dad, my sister and my best friend had to hold me back!!! it was awful. Nick had nothing on, but his Beautiful face!!!
I know you said this was a fairly easy Question, but for me, it was very hard to answer. With tears in my eyes and shaking as I write this, that was one of the memories that enters into my mind often still. I will never forget kissing and holding his hand, and kissing him one last time on his forehead, cheeks,nose, eyes, chin and lips. I kissed you all over your beautiful face, I didn't miss a spot!!!! Bittersweet memory ~T~